As I sit and think I realize that God has everything under control. Though I have "known" it for a long time in my head, I just feel it now more than ever. all things seem to be working towards specific points and I can see god working in them I am way too tired tonight to elaborate but I just had to get it out cuz I've been so stoked about it lately.

This is life now. Anger has been my weakness. It creeps into my attitudes and makes me bitter at everyone and everything. A few minutes ago I threw my iron because my shirt wouldn't iron right. Am I not supposed to be better than such lame childish anger as a christian. I sneeks its way into my heart oh so often. In the car (traffic and dumb drivers) and at things (like irons and loafs of bread that won't cut) is mostly where I have experienced anger before. It doesn't bother me too bad but when the bitterness seeps its way into my relationships and into the way I act towards others that's just not right. Today I took some time to try and refresh, and I feel refreshed, a little. The anger is gone for the most part but I can feel it lurking in my mind waiting for something to lashout upon (like my computer that is freaking out as i write this post).

All in all though life has been swell. My girlfriend of three years, Brooke, and I have been having some good conversations. She has really been pulling the weight of our relationship lately and has been encouraging me alot. She is an awesome woman. I've started to and continue to develop relationships with people at my work and I see some good possibilities there. I am so apprehensive to mention anything about church, I am even fearful to just hang out one on one with anyone, Its a scary thing to do. Roommates are great and i am getting tired as i wrtie so good night.

It seems that I am mostly going to use this for writting my life down and I doubt I'll keep it going enough for anyone to read regularly.

not sure how to work it but we'll see what this litttle e journal type thing does for me. Got the idea from jason evans but he's more computerly inclined than i.

help i don't understand